July 2010
6 posts
hey guys.new blog. xylaphoneribcage.tumblr.com
sorry i keep self promoting but i miss my thinspo followers/to follow on my other blog. this one is no longer a diet blog.
i’ve been very anxious. i have to go into chicago on thursday to get crazy meds to help me stop smoking. and maybe somethign for my anxiety.
hey guys.new blog. xylaphoneribcage.tumblr.com
thinspo/dieting blog.
hey guys.new blog. xylaphoneribcage.tumblr.com
i will be following thinspo/dieting blogs only.
i’m trying to follow as many of you as possible from this one.
ok this post i no longer going to have thinspo,...
go to my new thinspo, dieting blog.
xylaphoneribcage.tumblr.com
thanks :)
i will be unfollowing people and re following them on my new blog
i just hate people.
i want to make my facebook family only.
i want my facebook to be people i care about only.
i want to stop “stalking” people i hate and wanting to know what they are doing because every time i glance at it i get made at their stupidity.
ok so i've been busy and restricted.
the internet hasn’t been reliable lately
and i’ve been working almost 30 hours a week.
but i’m down to 129.8
:)
4 more pounds and i’m at my second goal weight
thing is i haven’t been counting or exercising much this week.
i’ve got all sorts of nutrition knowledge. so maybe one day when i have time i will type them up.
and i think i’m going to make...
June 2010
838 posts
It doesn’t help that she’s as thin as a rail fucking cunt
freckledspider:
I’d read it I read as many ed books as I can find
It’s been decided: I’m going to write a book, and I’m going to publish it. My story, and my experience with Anorexia Nervosa.
I hate you
I need to stop fucking toturing myself
Like I said anger? Anxiety? Time for a walk cuz I feel like I’m having a panic attack fuck right before the test not even about the test
Ok so now it’s about the test too and it’s full blown
I haven’t gotten a stomach effects panic attack since Richie used to do stupid shit to my emotions
Fuck you seriously.
I am fucked for this test
Plus there is a girl in the room I an in eating fresh fruit salad.
I want to steal it
I am weak
A few days off of here and I started to not care about being thin
What the fuck was I thinking?
I need to get back on track. That horrible self destructive track
When I feel angery or anxious I will exercise or fast. If I do not have to work tw calories will be low. After this week. This week I am eating “normally” to trick my metabolism and prove to myself that I can do it. But...
I hate studying.
I’d rather be working out
ahhhhhh
i really need to stop caring.
but i can’t
it’s not even caring it’s being nosey curious against my own sane thought.
ugh.
should i make my new private tumblr my only tumblr?
and how would i make it un private?
I have no one to talk to about my weight
pursuance:
and losing it and all that shit cause no one understands. and when i complain and rant about it they just tell me to stop talking about it. None of my friends get it :/
i know me neither. it would help if i had friends to start with. i’ve been feeling more and more alone lately
130.2lbs! finally.
i've been busy guys
with school and work and all that crap i’ve been too busy.
i have been 131 to 133lbs for the past week and it’s killing me.
at this rate i’ll never get to my UGW (111 is so far away!)
any ideas to get those last 1-3lbs off?
its things like that that piss me off
ugh. i dont have time to talk about it now. today started off annoying and upsetting as it is.
yesterday i was exactly 131, hoping to break that barrier and cross over into 130 today, but i am 131.4.
fuck you .4lbs!
i had a mini binge last night (i didn’t count the calories, i just didn’t want to i knew it was over my limit. i had chips and nacho cheese, a huge thing of spaghettie...
my freaking heart hurts. i've been having chest...
and that’s why i need to stop smoking.
it’s that weird pain you get when you breathe in deep. like a bubble that you want to pop but it hurts to bad to keep breathing.
my internet wasn't working last night :(
but i’m back now. for now. i have to go to the gym and work all night tonight.
i bought starbucks coffee. to brew. at home. it’s delish.
i had to buy my own ingredients to make miso soup. wasn’t that great.
i also made bread. wheat bread.
i’m kinda unsure how to count the caloires in food i make. so unless it’s full of butter or sugar i’m not counting it.
...
If you care to know...
cigarettesandscales:
chasingsizezero:
moinsquerien:
For the past week or so I roll a die to see how much I can eat that day. 1 is 100, 4 is 400, so on so forth. I like it better than the sgd or abc. And if I want to fast, I can. :) it’s personalized, yet left up to chance.
looving this idea :3
What a good idea!
ooo i like it :)
i am burnt out
i have 3 pages of my 5-8 page paper done. it’s APA which kills me. i have to do all the supporting pages.
i’m going to the gym. i feel a panic attack coming on. i have no time this weekend to finish it. except monday (the day it’s due) until 5:30.
i love being in the library surrounded by text...
i do not love writing this paper.
i wasn’t going to finish it because i dont have enough sources, and then i realized im in the fucking library lol!
i’ve got everything at my finger tips. i like to print my sources out but if i have a book then it’s ok.
gotta go look up bandura’s social-learning theory. and a book on feral children.
on the plus side i’ve only...
here's the deal
i freak out about 210 cals
because i was only up to about 30 today.
i worked out a lot and am at a plateau of 131lbs/60kg
i just want to hit my first goal. i need a hair cut and nails done and eyebrows waxed…
i just ate a pack of jalapeno combos
210 calories. fuck
there is a tornado coming and i'm in class. i...
they are taking toys out of happy meals
thank god. when i take my nephews to mcdonalds (as much as i hate it, their nuggets are full of horomones) it is the bane of my existence. they dont eat, i get shot in the eye with gun toys, they fight over who’s is who’s, they want a different one and then the 10 dollar’s worth of food is cold and no one eats it.
panic attack and class hasn't even started
no one listens to me or wants to be near me
i know what i’m talking about. i got the second highest grade on the test.
and i had less teachable moment points (extra credit points)
i have a presentation on monday and a test in a week.
i am (-159) cals for today.
im reading about girls who don’t eat girls who overeat and girls who p/b.
i feel like screaming.
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can i please have the passwqord to your progress...
i dont give my password to anons. i think it’s formspring thats making everyone anon though…
Ask me anything
ethnic-erosion asked: Hi!
I was wondering what the book with the restaurant alternative food was called? :D
I was wondering what the book with the restaurant alternative food was called? :D
im having a mini panic attack in the library
i found so many diet books.
so many
and some books on anorexia.
what do you think the librarian will think when i check them out together?
hahah.
actually it’s not funny. i do like to confuse people though.
like getting a book on religion and a sex book.
i found a really good book that tells you how to make low calorie versions of your fav restaurant goodies.
like from 2000 cals to...
